Today was a day that I truly could have easily unraveled. I did a team competition this past weekend, nothing too crazy and my knee seemed to have held up. Then BOOM…… I go to get out of bed this morning and holy crap my knee hurt. The most frustrating part……. it was my ‘good knee’ that really hurt. WTF?
When I look back on the last 3 years I am so proud of all the work I’ve put in and how far I have come. I have fought through a broken back, a ruptured achilles and a double-microfacture in my knee. I am FAR from feeling like I’m the athlete I used to be or even could be. I have had months were I have really been gaining steam and momentum. And BAM!!! I feel like I”m back at square one.
Ok, maybe not square one, but definitely at least square two. I can’t air squat to parallel without feeling every bit of swelling in my knee. I went through a tornado of emotions this am. Frustration, anger, pity, weakness, giving up…… finally getting me to ‘I have to set a new goal’
So our goal at Coca is to try and get a team to regionals, not the games….. regionals. Why? Because it’s something the individuals besides myself have never experienced and we think it would be amazing to be able to experience it together. so what my knees not ready to compete right now…… I don’t need to compete right now!
I need to look at how far I’ve rolled the ball up the hill, dig my feet in, and keep it moving up the hill.