Ok, so I didn’t literally get hit by a bus, but if I were to get hit by a bus I imagine it would feel much like I do now.
With sectionals a short 16 days away, I’ve been been busting my you know what at the gym. Working heavier, harder and stronger than ever before. Goal = top 20 in the sectional to get to the Midwest Regional in May. I strongly believe that crossfit competitions and every wod for that matter are 50% physical and 50% mental. Today’s wod was a great test of my mental strength, allowing me to prove to myself my strength.
Prior to today’s wod my 1rep max in a clean and jerk was 125lbs, and just a month ago I barely scraped through a wod with 105lbs clean and jerks in it, and today I was asked to face off with 30 reps at 115lbs!?!?! 1000 things start racing through my mind, that’s efing heavy, I can’t do it, that’s alot of reps. I decided to start the clock and quickly cover it up. I didn’t want to focus on time and trying to rush through the reps, leading to missed reps. When I start missing reps I start 2nd guessing my ability and my strength leading to more missed reps, and a possible situation of having to drop the weight, and mentally setting myself up for fear the next time 115 c&j’s are in a wod. So today I wanted to finish at 115lbs to prove to myself that I could, and I did just that.
I finished just shy of 20 min, but more importantly……I had finished. Now that I’ve proven to myself that I can do it, the next time this wod comes around I know I’m strong enough to do it. I didn’t miss a single rep that I attempted proving to myself that my technique is working and is solid when I’m mentally focused. I also held each rep in full lock out for a 2sec rep count so that my body and mind felt strong and confident under the weight. I consider today’s wod a HUGE mental victory. Unfortunately my body is paying the price. HA! What’s the famous quote “pain is weakness leaving the body”? If that’s true, I have ALOT of weakness leaving my body right now.
Heavy Rowing Grace
10 clean and jerks (115lbs)