I’m quickly finding as I’m preparing for the 2011 CrossFit Games that I’m pushing myself farther than ever before. My max efforts are through the roof. My weaknesses are improving, and yet, everyday is a struggle. Why? Because I”m growing, and growing is painful.
I look back four years ago. I was almost 80lbs heavier, couldn’t do a pullup to save my life and running was a challenge. Today, here I sit as an elite athlete competing in the sport I’ve grown to love, and yet the mental battle is the same. How could that be? How is that I’m fitter, faster and hungrier than ever and yet feel like I did day one? Because it’s never enough, and it never will be. That’s what makes a champion. Never settling or accepting ‘good enough’. I always want more. I always want faster. I always want farther.
It’s how we deal with these emotions that will determine our outcome. I spoke with my coach today about the pressure I’m putting on myself, and how it’s eating at me, like a cancer. Instead of using that desire to be better fuel me to drive harder, I’m letting it defeat me and delude all the hard work I’ve put in. And acknowledging that I’m starting down a negative path is allowing me to face the facts, and reassess my feelings. And I’m choosing to refocus my mind and focus on how far I’ve come, and the untapped potential we’re touching everyday.
So you feel down and out about your progress……guess what….so do I! Even those of us that are seen as the elite struggle EVERY SINGLE DAY with the same battle. You’re not alone. It’s how you choose to deal with those feeling so frustration that will determine your future.
“The greater the obstacle, the more glory in overcoming it.”