One thing I notice, even with myself, is that it’s a thin line between competing to be better, and getting too competitive. Why? Because we lose sight of what’s truly important.
I know for a long time I had a piss poor attitude towards training and competing, for a wide variety of reasons, mainly not being able to do what I used to be able to. In the last two years I ruptured my achilles and had a surgery on my knee. Needless two major surgeries in two years has left me ‘in the dust’ from a competitor stand point.
It can be so frustrating to be ‘coming back’ that sometimes it was easier to say screw it, I’m a lost cause. The reality is that I’m my happiest when I’m training. The difference…. I’m not training to compete, I’m training because I LOVE training. I’ve given myself one full year to dedicate to training slow and steady.
Who knows what can happen in a full year of eating right and training like a monster. I may just return to competing.
My focus is health. That means that some days I modify to stay off my knee. That means that some days I lighten the load to relieve the pressure off my joints. That means that I mobilize EVERYDAY. The instant I lose focus on training healthy and smart the instant I will start negative self talk, the instant I’ve gotten too competitive.