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06Oct/16

Learning to love my body again

Many of you are aware of the hell my husband and I have had to face the last several months now having lost two children, one at 22 weeks and one at 7 weeks.  Anyone that’s had to go through a pregnancy knows the effects that it has on your body and your hormones.

Pre-preganncy I sat at 148lbs……. I currently sit at 165lbs……and with no baby to show for it.  I have sacrificed my training, by diet and my body to create life.  A sacrifice I was more than thrilled to make. And one that is difficult to swallow now as I look in the mirror.

I see the after math of the hell my body has gone through the last 9 months.  The muscle lost.  The fat gained.  The training ability almost non-existent.  I have such negative emotions wrapped in what I see in the mirror because it’s a daily reminder of what we’ve lost.  A daily reminder of what could have been.  A daily reminder of what will never be.

I force myself to look at myself everyday, and force myself to say nice things about the body that I have.  I force myself to try to accept there I am at as it wont be where I will end up.  I am learning to walk in the shoes of my clients a little more each day as I struggle to love my body again after my body failed me.

So here it is…… here is my body……. the body I am learning to love again….img_4141

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